Wednesday, December 22, 2010


I've thrown away a lot in my lifetime thus far. I need to learn to be happy with what I have.

Nonetheless, I keep chasing the feeling of that one morning at Phillip Island, lying on the couch wrapped up tightly in blankets, utterly exhausted from what had been both the most and least eventful night of my life, watching the outside world go insane with storms as inside the beautiful melody of Sigur Ros played out, fitting amazingly and making what remains the most transcendant moment of my life. In that moment, I understood nature and true beauty, and I was happy. In that moment, I, with the friends around me, were utterly alone, deserted in an empty world, and we didn't even care.

While that breath-taking feeling eventually subsided into Asian news and Pig Destroyer; a sense of hilarity, powerlessness and an over-abundance of emotion, I'm going to get back to that initial feeling one day.

I have to.

Monday, October 11, 2010

sunsets and sigur ros.

Today, I'd spent the entire day inside. Since I felt like getting out and I wanted a smoke, I decided to go for a walk, and put Sigur Ros on my iPhone and walked around. The orange sunset and purple clouds highlighted the surrealist qualities of the music, and the atmosphere really flowed well with the birds and other assorted nature to highlight the qualities of spring. For once, I didn't really think about anything going on with me, instead just really enjoying the beauty of my surroundings.

It's nights like these I truly appreciate everything that I have.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

bucket list.

1. Punch a magpie out of the sky.
2. Visit Chernobyl.
3. Visit Auschwitz.
4. Binge through the entire series of Lost without sleeping.
5. Get my writing published.
6. Get five club photos.
7. Get married.
8. Have kids.
9. Have NSLC perform a show to more than 200 people.
10. Have a threesome.
11. Own 500 CDs.
12. Conquer my fear of jungle cats.
13. Get in a fight.
14. Win a fight.
15. Meet Jesse Lacey.
16. Write and record a good song.
17. Win a hot dog eating contest.
18. Drink an entire slab in one sitting.
19. Perform stand-up comedy.
20. Do cocaine.
xx. Fall in love.

three cheers for my morose and grieving pals.

I spent today complaining to myself and bumming myself out with Brand New and Explosions about a decision that I made only to benefit myself, only to get more bummed out when I got jealous about some shit that couldn't concern me less.

But that's it on it. I've got a fucking ridiculously killer streak in the Battle Arcade. I'm moving on and moving up, and I can only see good things happening.